Before coming to Christ, I often felt alone. I imagined myself floating down the river, freaked out at where I was headed, so much so that I lived a life of chaos, clinging and grasping at the straws of addiction and sticks and logs of co-dependance, scrambling to find a way out, to no avail. Fearful that I would be whooshed all the way down to the sea where gigantic monsters would eat me alive, only to die with no point to any of the journey.
When we are disconnected from God (the worst is when we are so delusional we think we are still connected!) we tend to justify our actions and reactions to life. We act like wild animals caught in a trap, snapping and biting at those who are trying to help. We don’t understand that our reality is jacked up, our perception is completely skewed and we allow emotions to cloud truth.
When I am feeling scared, irritable, discontent or just plainly BLAH, I find that my acceptance of a person, place or thing is out of my reach. I can find no rest or serenity until I accept that person, place or thing as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at that moment.
NOTHING, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HAPPENS IN GODS WORLD BY MISTAKE.
In the book of 1 Samuel, we read of Saul, the first king of Israel and the rise of a young David.
But an evil spirit from the Lord came upon Saul as he was sitting in his house with a spear in his hand. While David was playing the harp, Saul tried to pin him to the wall with his spear, but David eluded him as Saul drove the spear into the wall. That night David made good his escape. 1 Samuel 19:9
The point I find interesting is that the evil spirit came from God. Just remember, nothing happens by mistake. What seems a life and death issue in today’s world, usually isn’t, it is just our emotions freaking us out and dramatizing every little detail. When things truly are life and death for us, as long as we stay connected to God through Jesus and the Holy Spirit, we understand that things happen for reasons outside of ourselves and it is easier to accept and thus live a life of sane and happy usefulness no matter the circumstances. We can do that when we stay close to God through prayer, rest and surrounding ourselves with the right influences.
I pray no matter YOUR circumstances, you can turn to God for strength and security. All will be revealed in time.
How many are your works, O Lord!
In wisdom you made them all;
the earth is full of your creatures.
There is the sea, vast and spacious, teeming with creatures beyond number-living things both large and small.
There the ships go to and fro, and the leviathan, which you formed to frolic there.
These all look to you to give them their food at the proper time. Psalm 104:24-27